Saturday, January 4, 2014

Free Falling

New year, fresh start on writing. I fell off the posting bandwagon after my November show with T. Lang and staibdance - we have been on a rehearsal break for the holidays and lots of things have become sort of lax in my routine. But it has been sort of sweet. I have gotten to spend more time at the yoga studio, and going to dinner with friends, and traveling home for Christmas to see my family. I appreciate the down time way more after a very busy fall and dance season. Enjoying something as simple as sleeping as late as I want on a Saturday morning, or going out for drinks without being concerned about not performing my best in rehearsal the next day has reminded me that I am just 25, and I need to cut myself a break sometimes. I love everything that I have going on in my life right now, and I am sure a lot of it is because of the long hours I put into my various jobs, but I also need to remember that everything doesn't have to be perfect all the time. 

One of my resolutions this year is to stop being afraid of falling. This came as a yoga resolution of sorts, as I have been working on my handstand the past few months, and my teacher has said I have all the strength and alignment to be able to stick my handstand on my own, I just need to find the line of balance and that only comes with practice and overcoming the fear of falling. Just learn how to fall with grace. So I am attempting to apply this to all aspects of my life. I let my Virgo perfectionist tendencies get in my way sometimes and the thought of getting something wrong can hinder me from trying my hardest. So I am learning to be ok with falling, gracefully, and seeing what new doors can open with a little more freedom, playfulness, and kindness towards myself.